Five Years Later

"Today I am so thankful to God for my life! It was 5 years ago today I found out there was masses on my lungs, these masses would turn out to be a rare form of cancer called Leiomyosarcoma. At that time the doctors told me to get my affairs in order as I only had a few month left.

When you are told you don't have long to live every moment becomes precious. Although things have not always been easy over the last 5 years God has been so good to me. I have never had any pain from my cancer and times I have been really ill has been from side effects of chemo. Yes I had days when I been down but they have been far and between and even the doctors comment on my positive attitude. But for me in is more than positive attitude it is my hope, trust and belief that my God is going to healing me.

Although I am not completely healed yet and the cancer has spread to my scalp, I am believing for total healing. Over all I am doing better than I have in a long time. I can walk farther without getting short of breath, I have more energy. Last year at this time I was on a liquid diet due to damage to my esophagus from radiation now I can eat almost anything.

Please stand and believe with me that God will finish the healing he has started in me, that my cancer will be completely gone. Thanks for all your friendship, prayers and support over the last 5 years."

A recent testimony from Judy.

Please continue to partner with Judy for full healing!

What do you see? | Part 1

A few years ago, I had a fairly weird experience. Which now isn't uncommon but at the time it definitely was. It was during my first year at Ministry School, where I was pushed, pulled and dragged through all kinds of wonderful opportunities. All of which I am definitely grateful for! (We should never become accustomed to comfort.) The one I want to highlight in particular was 'Creativity'; which to me was a foreign idea. The first 24 years of my life probably included some forms of creativity, especially my younger years. But the older I got the less I really took notice, explored or played with it. I do remember taking up the guitar at around 7, before stopping at 8. I also remember drawing and painting as a child. But by High school, Art and Music were probably my least favourite classes.

Jumping back to Ministry School; one night after class, I spent some time in the Prayer Room. Now, this isn't remotely as boring as it sounds. In fact, it changed prayer for me completely. There's all kinds of fun things you can do in there, one of which is to draw (If you're finding prayer boring, do something different). At first I began playing around with some ideas that I thought were... Well literally just good ideas.  Mostly they were things that I thought would be good additions to either my future or to the lives of people I knew. Actually, I was kind of being a little bit selfish!

After a while I began drawing a birds eye view of a particular area in my city, buildings, roads and businesses (Still all just for fun). Then I decided that one of the buildings I had sketched would be an awesome location for a Church. So I decided, in my little make believe world, to give it to the Church I was currently attending whilst home in England. I got really into it and even started taking over other buildings that were closely situated (Picture the board game RISK) "this would be an awesome place for lots of people to worship” "this one would be an awesome Healing Rooms, where people can come for prayer". I never prayed over them as far as I can remember, it was more of an inside acknowledgement to God that I thought the ideas would be awesome. Afterwards, I packed it up and went on with the rest of the School year.

Fast forward to around 9 months later.

When I got home for for Summer holidays (vacation), I received a phone call from one of the Pastors at my Church. He began to tell me that a friend of mine (who'd come to visit me during the School year) had mentioned that I had a prophetic word about a Church building whilst at School. He asked if I would mind sharing it with them, so I said yes. Honestly, I hadn't planned on telling anyone (because I had completely forgotten), and didn't think that my friend would remember something like that, let alone think it was important enough to mention to anyone else. Long story short, I shared my word and showed my drawings. Much to everyone's surprise, my sketch was seemingly becoming a reality. They were looking at buying one of the three buildings in my drawing. Not perfectly accurate, but close enough! There are a lot of buildings in that city. What made it more surprising was that none of this was public knowledge at this point. Every possible question went through my mind, including the most obvious: Did I make that happen? Just so we are clear, the Church chose not to buy that building in the end. They thought carefully about it for a while but it never happened. Which presented me even more questions! Was that a fluke then? If so next time can I just have next weeks Lottery numbers? What was the point of all that? It didn't happen, so am I a false prophet...? What started off as a nice idea in my imagination began to become a reality, right before my eyes.

So, what do you do with that?

In Hebrews 11:3, it says "By faith we understand that the worlds were prepared by the word of God, so that what is seen was not made out of things which are visible."

It's my opinion that everything we see, including this Mac-book I'm using to write; Before it was ever seen in the physical world, someone had to first envision it by imagination.

A great example of this would be Walt Disney, who's ideas revolutionized the entertainment industry during the Twentieth century. His employees were, and still are named 'Imagineers', a term coined by merging the Imagination with the skill of Engineering. They quite literally were told they had one job.... To dream of new ideas and extend the borders of the Magic Kingdom. Eventually, Walt's ideas turned into the Happiest Place on Earth; The wonder filled theme parks we all know and love. These, including their characters, were first ideas that were birthed in the imagination. He wasn't scared to dream and he became pregnant with a vision which has changed the world. Some would say that the imagination can be dangerous, and I would have to agree, that can be true. But the renewed mind (Rom 12:2) is a sanctified imagination.

Just to be clear, by sharing these two stories I am not attempting to compare myself to Walt Disney. Nor my weird experience to Walt's world changing secret sauce. In fact the only person my experience has changed is me; In the way I see myself, see God and Prayer. What Walt Disney imagined, he created. And it changed much of the World.

So what is my point?

God said that we were made in His image and in His likeness (Gen 1:26).

In other words: What God imagined about Himself, we became.

You are like your Dad!

You have the mind of Christ (1 Cor 2:16).

God wants to create with you. He is the Great Creator, and He's not finished creating. Actually that's where you come in. I wonder how many God (good) ideas we've dismissed or passed off under the guise of greed or "that's not something we pray for"? Could false humility be robbing the World of new inventions, new technology and creative solutions to global issues? The religious spirit would love to keep you boxed in vein repetition, repeating acceptable prayers. Does God want to use YOU to give birth to these kinds of ideas? If you are feeling as though prayer has become a boxed routine, do something different.

One thing I failed to mention earlier. The first building in my drawing was actually already owned by a furniture store... called DREAMS.

What is in your spirit?... What do YOU see?

Thanksgiving & Purpose

I have spent this past week diving into "Strengthening Yourself in the Lord" by Bill Johnson.  I haven't read this book for about 6 years, but it has been so ground shaking for me this week.  I am currently reading about thanksgiving, and the power that thanksgiving has over disarming hell.  Not only does thanksgiving prepare the way for the Lord's presence, but it also calls us into the true reality of who God has called us to be.  When we become inner-focused, or navel gazing as I like to call it, we lose focus of who God is, what He has done, and we give access and open a door towards partnering with the enemy. 

Thanksgiving, even in the hardest of seasons, is a weapon that can destroy the plans of the enemy.  Right after we got married, when I was the only one working while we awaited Andy's immigration process, I think thanksgiving saved me.  Even when we were down to the last 30 cents, and I was dog-tired, I continually praised Him and gave thanks for everything that God was doing in our lives.  I was thankful for the small things, the big things, and even the most ridiculous things... but it began to shift my perspective, and kept my focus on Him, not the lack. 

The following is an excerpt from Bill's book.  If you haven't read it, I will give you my copy... it has given me so many tools to walking in Faith, even when it feels hard.

"When God tell us to give Him thanks, He is not insinuating that He gives in order to get something from us.  God doesn't manipulate us with His gifts.  He wants us to thank Him because thankfulness acknowledges the truth about our lives.  And when we agree with the truth, then the truth sets us free to see and manifest the greatness that He has put in us as the ones He has made in Him Image.  When we withhold thanks from God, we are actually cutting ourselves off from who we are.

In Romans 1:18-21, Paul explains that God has not kept who He is a secret.  Knowing God is not hard.  It is actually the most obvious thing in the world- all you have to do is glorify Him as God and be thankful.  This response, because it agrees with the truth, give you open access to the vast treasures of the knowledge of God.  But without that response, your thoughts become futile and your heart darkened.  Futile means purposeless.  When we fail to sustain the response of thanksgiving for everything in our lives, our thinking is cut off from our purpose in God.  "When we lose sight of our purpose, we will inevitably make choices that are outside of God's intentions for our lives."

I don't want to be cut off from the purpose that God has laid out for me.  God has designed a plan and purpose for me, and so if walking in thanksgiving is a way that I can partner with who He has called me to be.. I am going to do it.  Even when it is hard, even when I'm dead tired, and I need people to hold me up.  Thanksgiving leads me to His purpose and calling.  Thanksgiving keeps me SANE and ALIVE.